"menyukaimu dari jauh, dalam diam, dan dengan kesederhanaan"

semoga masih bisa tersampaikan :)

doesn't make sense

i get dreams of you.
even when i go blank, i get pictures of you flashing in my mind.
i get flashbacks, the ones where there are you and me in one frame.

this doesn't make sense, at all.
you know why, you do know the reasons.

hurts my heart.
flutters my heart.
do whatever you want, but please don't do the exact contradict actions at the same time just because,
just because i can't take it.

this doesn't make sense, at all.
because everything, everything is just happening to me.
you don't even get the same pain, do you?
you don't even feel the same tingling in your stomach, do you?
you exactly don't project the same visions i get.

you are the protagonist one here, in my little own drama.
that doesn't make sense.
and i still want you to be the main act here,
to hurt me down
to flutter me up
to be just you
just let me like you, and i will be content enough.
yes, this will never make sense.

one-sided crave

dormitory's farewell party was held today. i caught a glimpse of you. i swear to God i didn't even try to search you within the crowds. it just happened. i saw your back and you turned around--there, you. standing and smiling with all your glory, having no second thoughts whether those acts would melt me down right there on place.

seriously though, i said i wanted to move on, i stated that i would. but it seems the more i denied it the more i crave for you.

i unconsciously memorized your back, the length of your hair, the color of your skin. i unconsciously want to hear you calling my name, to hear your laugh, to hear my voice blending with yours.

i'm not unconsciously craving for you, because i'm perfectly aware that this is just one-sided