every rose has its thorns

listened to this song today's afternoon and automatically fell in love with this piece of perfection. The music video which has good combination of grayscale and reds shoots everywhere managed to capture my heart in no second.

the translation of this song:

Is there something wrong?

with me? I have this tendency to fucking fuck up with all my relationships. People mad at me. I mad at people. They distance themselves from me. I distance myself. There will be time when I get bored with everyone I'm close with, and then I drift away for awhile. But when I want to go back, they are already gone. It's so lonely, my life is. Having no one to actually understand you, no one that could put up with my flaws, my negative side. People are easily get sick of me. There is absolutely something, or maybe a lot of thing that completely wrong with me.

How does it feel to be someone's first priority?

i never know. i haven't been anyone's. even all my closest friends. even in my family. no matter what i have done to people, i will never be their first priority. one of many sad truths about myself.